Collected (Partially) Poetic Expressions Mostly About Love (and Mostly Unrequited) - Christopher Klinges (all rights reserved)

[Beginning of an ongoing work in progress to gather the detritus from lost notebooks and journals which I used along the way as receptacles for verbal impressions of my journey. The exercise in entirety begins somewhere in the early 1970s and, by starts and stops, reaches to the present]

Maria From Afar

I see you walk away,
And know I’m still outside.
I hope I’m not too old
Before I love again.
I can’t wait till then —
Or for you.

Haiku

There are lonely men
And their sad path is the way
Of desperation

To the Next Woman Loved

My thumb touches a nipple
Your smile stretches ear to ear
You pretend to listen to me.
But you’re somewhere else...
The expression on your face
Doesn’t distract from your eyes afire;
They burn through my background noise;
Begging me to hold you —
And be silent awhile.


Not My Turn

You whisper the haunting song of a dove
Speaking things I should not hear
Through disguise of background crowd noise.
But I do.

You speak breathless hush of enthrallment
For a man that you desire:
His eyes clutching your soul;
His face so much your twin;
His body melted in you
Between earth and firmament;
The Earth in you and him.

While your heart song pours forth
I feel hope fade;
Eclipsed with jealousy...
My realization — against all desire —
I’m not the fire in you.

You praise your distant god unknown
Panting, dizzy, breathless, fainting.
I sit unseen alone beside you

Dying to share your life.

Abortion

Where will you be when the baby arrives
She asked.

I closed the door

And fainted at the thought.

When I woke the doctor told me

I’d suffered bruises in the fall.

I knew she killed the child
While I slept.

Haiku
There it stands, a chair:
Unrelenting tragedy.
It can’t sit like me.

Song for the Soul Mate

I

This song’s about a secret love
That now I can't conceal
Precious inner love revealed;
Poured forth; and all renewing.

Instant in occurrence
When first my soul felt
Love within the Lovely
Gazing into me.

Not myself but love with me
Bliss so real again
Alive to live a dream
With her my love so lovely
In love too pure to be named sin.

Roses like you against a night sky;
Aglow within the darkness
That never touches; never darkens;
never comprehends you.

Such a beauty there encompassed
Such a dream unfolding
Treasure limitless contained
In what our hearts are holding.

II

The mind by compression 

Binds together memory.

Focused later in recollection,

There blooms the story of what happened

what is happening; 

what is likely to happen 

from all words, all deeds, and all events 

that flowed and flow with us in time.

III

There’s virtue in not knowing.
There’s blessing in ignorance.
Blessings are bliss.
Her mystery is a gift.
She knows she is the treasure.
And that I highly treasure her gift.

IV

This song was meant to be
About a friend in need

This song was meant to be
For hope of love indeed

This song was meant to be
About love forevermore

This song was meant to be
The promise of hope in store

This song was meant to be
For what is now no more

This song was meant to be
The tale of falling apart

This song was meant to be
Of anguish in the heart

This song was meant to be
This song was meant to be
This song was meant to be
This song was meant to be

V

I loved you more and more each day
Now lost to me and far away
And you know
I never wanted you to go

There’s tendency that’s truly sad
At work making good things bad
And you know
I never wanted you to go

I always was in love with you;
But — always free — you up and flew
And you know
I never wanted you to go

My mistake was to confess my love
But I can’t hide all I’m thinking of
And you know
I never wanted you to go

Through time and distance can't you see
Together we knew tranquility
And you know
I never wanted you to go

Come back come back come back to me
There’s much for us that’s yet to be
And you know
I’ll never ever let you go.

VI

Woman

Best friend
Pure heart
Godsend